So there is this girl.....

Yah I know I had said this was supposed to be about life, and how I view it, and it still kinda it, but GTFOI, its my blog.
BTW GTFOI stands for (Get The Fuck Over It) and I am 99% I came up with it.

So as my previous entry said there is this one exception this one girl that I would date, and that is it. I have liked her for a while, and I have known her for 2 years. She is crazy, and just all out amazing. She has such a unique personality, and that makes her stand out so well, although she never seems to pick the right guys. She deserves so much more than she ever gets.. She has this way of just making everyone laugh, and she is so very pretty. One of the prettier girls that I know. She is just full of so much energy all the time. She runs a lot, and I wish I did as well, I'm working on that now, but she is just amazing. So fun, so crazy, so weird. She just seems to make my day whenever I talk to her, even though sometimes it is kinda hard to keep talking to her as she does have her own boyfriend, who is one of my friends, but is such a dick as a person... I know that if she reads this she should know almost instantly that this is about her, and she probably will end up reading this.. And I know she knows I like her, or at least knows that I did, I don't know if she knows that I currently like her. It just seems like I am standing outside the window looking in, and I try to help, but it seems I'm just a little too shy to just try and step in... I'm not a very forward person, I am more forward than I used to be, but still I am not very forward... Which has led to me not having very many girlfriends, but then again, it seems to be after a while that there is just no real point in trying to get a girl that in the end could very well end up cheating on you and breaking your heart..... But this one girl just sticks out to me, and no matter what I seem to do I just cant seem to stop thinking about her... About how I think we would be great together... How I could actually treat her how she should be treated, not like everyone else treats her. And I just hope that if she does read this, it doesn't make things awkward between us, and I'd like to tell myself that I'm not self conscious, but we all are, we are all looking for some sort of peer approval, and that part of me is trying to tell me not to post this, but I want to. I want to be able to do what I want, and just blow off what people think, and for the most part I do, but if it is someone that I halfway care about, then it kind of hurts... I feel a lot like Simon from Mis Fits, a show on Hulu. He isn't a very trendy guy, he seems to stick to himself, but he wants to be included. Well when he gets his super power his is to turn invisible, which is a way for him to hide from the world and all the criticism... He and his 4 other friends joined by this bond of super powers. But the whole power is supposed to represent his want to hide, and I feel like that, I tend to be the person on the edge of the circle, the one who walks with his hands in his pockets silent as everyone else talks... Who really seems to give a damn if people hear what I listen to and it might very well be a little different, and now that I think about it it is stupid as hell.... But it's who I am...

Peace.